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    Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
    12:21 am
    Faith 2/2
    Title: Faith (2/2)
    Summary: "I don't believe you.”
    Disclaimer: This didn’t happen. And no matter how much I want to, I can’t control these boys with my thoughts.
    Pairing: Zachary Quinto/Christopher Pine
    Rating: NC-17
    Word Count: ~6,800
    Warnings: Angst, fisting, and whatever else you'd expect from an NC-17
    A/N: Unfortunately my beta has a life these days unlike myself, so this has just been glanced over by yours-truly for major grammatical errors.  Also, it took me like forever to write as I kept getting interrupted by real-life things like ear infections and senior theses.

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    12:19 am
    Faith 1/2
    Title: Faith (1/2)
    Summary: "I don't believe you.”
    Disclaimer: This didn’t happen. And no matter how much I want to, I can’t control these boys with my thoughts.
    Pairing: Zachary Quinto/Christopher Pine
    Rating: NC-17
    Word Count: ~6,800
    Warnings: Angst, fisting, and whatever else you'd expect from an NC-17
    A/N: Unfortunately my beta has a life these days unlike myself, so this has just been glanced over by yours-truly for major grammatical errors.  Also, it took me like forever to write as I kept getting interrupted by real-life things like ear infections and senior theses.

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    Tuesday, August 18th, 2009
    2:12 pm
    Never Enough
    Title: Never Enough (-OR- How I went from avoiding RPS to writing it in two short months)
    Summary: "Zach should say no. But he can’t.”
    Disclaimer: This didn’t happen. And no matter how much I want to, I can’t control these boys with my thoughts.
    Pairing: Zachary Quinto/Christopher Pine, Christopher Pine/Other (though the "other" is more of a plot device than a character)
    Rating: NC-17
    Word Count: 5,658
    Warnings: Allusions to rough sex and rimming.
    Dedication: Thanks to my roommate, o_tempora , for her wonderful abilities as a beta. And damn her to hell for making my life consist of nothing but Trek and RPS.
    A/N: So goes my first foray into RPS.

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    Monday, November 28th, 2005
    11:11 am
    1. Reply to this post if you want/need me to tell you how cool you are! (Sorry, but if I don't actually know who you are, it doesn't really work, this is supposed to be genuine.)

    2. Watch my journal over the next few days for a post just about you and why I think you (to borrow a phrase) rock my socks.

    3. Post these instructions in your journal and give your friends a much needed dose of love and adoration!
    Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005
    11:30 pm
    6:06 pm
    so i went shopping today and here's what i got:

    a pair of pants with the most flattering cut that are just plain black

    a pair of pants with the same flattering cut + cuffs that have blue (and a couple other colors that aren't important) pinstripes

    a white shirt that's ok

    a perty black skirt (the one we looked at chelle)

    and the best pair of shoes ever...they have like 2 1/2 inch heels...cut pretty simply with a strap that goes behind the heel...but the kicker...not only are they sparkly and bright turqouise...but they also match EXACTLY the pinstripe in my pants

    the only thing i wanted that i couldn't find:

    cargo pants

    is that awesome or what?

    the only thing that could make it more awesome is the fact that JESS SATRANG IS COMING HOME TONIGHT AND I GET TO SPEND A WHOLE FOUR DAY WEEKEND WITH HER...


    Current Mood: shooooooooooooooooes
    Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
    7:45 pm
    the next installment in spms story
    So, that afternoon, the lovely SPM and the devious Chelle did their good samaratin duty and helped out at the cornerstone rescue mission thrift store which, as SPM found out, is NOT the same as the salvation army. They color-coded clothing and the evilness that is Chelle bought two pairs of cute shoes for 4 bucks. SPM managed to moon over/be emo about the-guy-with-all-the-nicknames only 6.999999999999999999999999999999999999999... of the next 7 hours she was awake. It's a record.

    Anywho, the next day in the class taught by the old man, SPM is talking with the-multinamed-boy, Nora, Dustin, and the freakishly nigerian Erik. SPM looks towards the many-nicknamed-one and sees he is sniffing Dustin's shoulder. SPM laughed and joked with the-one-of-indeterminate name.

    In short, SPM's brain functioned the whole conversation. And one later in the day. SPM was proud of herself.

    Current Mood: yayayayayayayayayay
    Sunday, November 13th, 2005
    8:09 pm
    Save the sanctity of the 55-hour just-for-fun marriage
    i saw this and thought it was cute...

    Ten Reasons Why Gay Marriage Should Obviously Be Illegal...

    01) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

    02) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

    03) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

    04) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

    05) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

    06) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

    07) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

    08) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

    09) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

    10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

    Current Mood: ee hee hee
    Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
    11:49 am

    First Best Friend(s): um...natalie ronning and kayla wagner
    First Screen Name: quinkydink2000
    First Pet: lucy/cinder (cat/dog we had when i was born)
    First Piercing: ears when I was 4
    First Crush: um...don't remember...
    First CD: i think it was a spice girls cd i bought for 5 dollars from my brother
    First Car: 92 purple van named tave
    First Love: ...
    First Stuffed Animal: um...i don't remember


    Last Alcoholic Beverage: um...some wine my parents had
    Last Car Ride: terin's house to school
    Last movie seen: garden state
    Last Phone Call: to chelle saying i wouldn't be at nhs
    Last CD Played: um...indigo girls rites of passage
    Last Bubble Bath: um. a while ago.
    Last Time You Cried: hm...i forget.


    Have you ever dated one of your best friends: no
    Have you ever been arrested: nope.
    Have you ever skinny dipped: yes--god i'm the only one on her who has
    Have you ever been on TV: yes
    Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: no
    Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew: not really


    1. red skirt
    2. black turtleneck
    3. flip flops
    4. duct tape
    5. bracelet
    6. one undergarment
    7. another undergarment


    1. gone to school
    2. eaten
    3. not done homework
    4. laughed with chelle
    5. seen terin rake pooters body with her eyes
    6. um...


    1. music in any form
    2. reading
    3. watching movie or tv
    4. getting butterflies in my stomach
    5. Being with friends


    1. Jess
    2. Prairie
    3. Chelle
    4. Niqua


    1. hot or cold: warm
    2. beef patties or mcCHICKENs: uh...
    3. BBALL or BOys/Girls: eh?!?!?!?!?!


    1. fall in love
    2. make a difference


    1. never learning the guitar

    Current Mood: happy
    Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
    9:14 pm
    Police are warning all men who frequent clubs, parties
    and local bars to be alert and stay cautious when
    offered a drink from any woman. Many females use a
    date rape drug on the market called "Beer". The drug
    is found in liquid form and available anywhere. It
    comes in bottles, cans, from taps and in large kegs.
    Beer is used by female sexual predators at parties and
    bars to persuade their male victims to go home and
    have sex with them. A woman needs only to get a guy to
    consume a few units of Beer and then simply ask him
    home for no strings attached sex. Men are rendered
    helpless against this approach.
    After several Beers, men will often succumb to the
    desires to perform sexual acts with women. After
    drinking Beer, men often awaken with only hazy
    memories of exactly what happened to them the night
    before, often with just a vague feeling that
    "something bad" occurred.
    At other times these unfortunate men are swindled out
    of their life's savings, in a familiar scam known as
    "a relationship." In extreme cases, the female may
    even be shrewd enough to entrap the unsuspecting male
    into a longer term form of servitude and punishment
    referred to as "marriage." Men are much more
    susceptible to this scam after Beer is administered
    and sex is offered by the predatory females.
    Please! Forward this warning to every male you know.
    If you fall victim to this 'Beer' and the women
    administering it... there are male support groups
    where you can discuss the details of your shocking
    encounter with similarly affected like-minded guys.
    For the support group nearest you, just look up "Golf
    Courses" in the phone book.
    Sunday, October 30th, 2005
    7:23 pm
    first of all...everyone stop and admire the wonderful icon that jess satrang made for me...

    i think i'm in love with her

    in other news: we must all thank God/Joss Whedon for Malcolm Reynolds in tight pants...but hate God/Joss Whedon cuz he doesn't sleep with the prostitute...the RIGHT prostitute

    Current Mood: happy
    8:57 am
    urgh...i got up an hour too early cuz i forgot about daylight savings...

    kill me pleez...

    anywho...halloween thingy

    therealspm's Halloween party:

    amaryllises dressed as the spirit of their dead grandmother Irene.
    chocolat_banana dressed as a new member of the Wu-Tang Clan, Friendly Mastermind.
    djangodog2112 dressed as a new superhero: Karate Shrike.
    emralddraco dressed as the love child of Dan Quayle and Julia Roberts.
    fifianfreak dressed as Lucy Lawless.
    fuzanki dressed as the Vicount of Eqbic.
    gooooyaffa dressed as a rabbit.
    housiaux dressed as a disturbing self-made character called "Loopy Pottyhead".
    hpmott dressed as a second baseman for the Angels.
    mostlyawesome dressed as Optimus Prime.
    rochellenae dressed as James Polk.
    snorlison dressed as Moaning Myrtle.
    therealspm dressed as a Margie Cleijne & Co. BrothersInc. employee.

    Throw your own party at the Hallomeme!
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    Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
    9:24 pm
    NAme thing
    (your middle name, street you grew up on)
    Marie Monte (ooh...sounds sexy)

    (grandfather/mother on mother's side first name, favorite snack)
    Jean Chocolate (wtf???)

    (first word you see on your left, favorite restaurant)
    first word i see on my what exactly is that

    (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
    S PRE (cuz that's totally a name)

    (favorite animal, name of high school)
    Puppie Stevens (strikes fear in the hearts of all the wicked...flies)

    (middle name, city where you were born)
    Marie Rapid (i left of city of course...not too bad a name)

    (name of sibling/parent [opposite sex], cell phone company you use):
    Henry Verizon (meh)

    (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name)
    PRE ICE COP (tee hee hee...that's kinna funny)
    Thursday, October 20th, 2005
    8:57 pm
    i did like a bajillion crosswords today

    like i ran out of crosswords to do on yahoo games

    um...nothing much else happened

    took my senior pics which will hopefully turn out awesomely and pissed at my parents but that's nothing new

    i want it to be the end of the school year

    i'm going fucking crazy here still...grr...why can't i be done already

    or at least find something to pass the time

    no offense to guy rock...just need something more

    8:57 pm
    schulz-like essay
    in case i forget it tomorrow:
    In the short story, “The Lesson”, Miss Moore takes a group of kids on an outing to FAO Schwartz in order to impart a lesson to the children: think. Some characters in the story don’t learn the lesson, and others do. Bambara uses diction, syntax, repitition, and the plot triangle to illustrate that while some children, such as me and Sugar, understand the lesson, others, such as Flyboy and Mercedes, don’t.

    Two characters in “The Lesson” learn what it is Miss Moore’s trying to teach: Sugar and me. At the end of the story when they are back at the mailbox, Sugar’s repetitive use of “I think” demonstrates that she has learned the lesson. She also switches from a more crude and vulgar form of speech to using words like “democracy” and “pursue happiness”, indicating a consciousness shift from carefree to thoughtful. However, me literally and figuratively stomps the thought out of Sugar when she steps on her foot. At the end of the book, Sugar is the same as she was at the beginning. She wants to spend the 4 dollars she’s gained on frivolity, much like me suggested in the beginning, instead of giving the concept more thought. Conversely, at the end of the story, me understands the lesson. She says, “I got a headache for thinkin so hard”, and also repeats the word think multiple times. She chooses not to follow Sugar into the world of frivolity. Instead, me goes off in the other direction to think the day over, because “ain't nobody gonna beat me at nuthin.”

    Conversely, many characters in the story do not understand the lesson at all. Two examples are Flyboy and Mercedes. Both characters are flat, not changing from the beginning of the story to the end. When asked how they liked the toy store, Flyboy merely responds that he wants a shower because it has been a tiring day. No thought was involved with his reply, and the word choice does not reflect clear understanding. Similarly, Mercedes responds that she wants to go back to the store when she gets he birthday money. Mercedes is only concerned with the toys in the toy store and, like Flyboy, makes no attempt to understand Miss Moore’s point. Both characters do not think through the entire story.
    Monday, October 17th, 2005
    8:10 am
    so this weekend was 66.666666666666666666666666...% good...

    friday night i went to the poetry slam with prairie, chelle, and luke and then all of us minus chelle went to my house to watch pulp fiction...time of going to sleep???:1 am

    up at like 7 the next morning to go to a kb tournament where i was one of three people on the senior team...but we still did REALLY good considering (4th place) then prairie and i went to chelle's house to finish pulp fiction...chelle and i went to go see elizabethtown after that and omigoshorlandobloomisjustsocuteinthatmovieanditotallywanttoseeitagain...then we all went to tgifridays where i alternated in between being a chick and a guy depending on the topic of conversation...chelle and i almost have the perfect guy built...time of going to sleep???:12 pm

    got up the next day, finished the first unit in econ...did my calc homework while watching like 4 episodes of buffy...attempted to write an essay but failed to even get started, watched the majority of saved, got in a fight with my mom...

    omigod i'm so pissed at my mom was soooooooo in psychobitch mode yesterday, and when i got mad at her, she blamed it on the they fucking took away the connector from the tv to the vcr (which for spm's tv means that only channel 7 comes in)'s like they blame anything but THEM for me being mad at THEM...grrr...

    then i read 1 1/2 cheesy romance novels...time of going to sleep???:12 pm

    up at seven thirty, decided to skip calc cuz we're only getting our tests like 1 1/2 hours to kill now

    Current Mood: aggravated
    Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
    9:37 pm

    1. My name:
    2. Where did we meet?:
    3. Take a stab at my middle name:
    4. How long have you known me?:
    5. How well do you know me?:
    6. Do I smoke?:
    7. Do I believe in God?:
    8. When you first saw me what was your impression?:
    9. My age:
    10. Birthday:
    11. Color hair:
    12. Eye color:
    13. Do I have any siblings?:
    14. Have you ever had a crush on me?:
    15. What's one of my favorite things to do?:
    16. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?:
    17. What's my favorite type of music?:
    18. What is the best feature about me?:
    19. Am I shy or outgoing?:
    20. Would you say I am funny?:
    21. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules?:
    22. Any special talents?:
    23. Would you consider me a friend?:
    24. Would you call me preppy, slutty, a homie, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, raver, rocker, or something else?:
    25. Have you ever seen me cry?:
    26. If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be?:
    27. Are my parents still together?:
    28. What do I love?
    29. Have I ever had a crush on you?
    30. Have I ever been in love?:
    31. When was the last time we spent time together?
    32. If, in one hour, I'll be gone forever...what will be your last words for me?:
    Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
    9:19 pm
    National Merit essay
    for all those who's my nm essay

    tooke me like 10 minutes...hope you like it

    Laurel Thatcher Ulrich once wrote, “Well-behaved women rarely make history.” I heard this quote for the first time when I was still in Middle School. At that point in my life, the only meaning I gleaned from it was that if I misbehaved, then everyone would remember me. I won’t exactly say that I took it to heart, however my parents might argue about that.
    Now, five years older and 5 years more mature, the quote now means something else. It means that there’s no use for me, as a woman and a person, on the sidelines of life. If I don’t step in and make my mark on history, then my life may very well be pointless. Much of my time has been spent figuring out exactly how to prevent sitting on the bench my entire life. I’ve decided that it comes down to three things.
    The first is that I must always question what’s going on. What’s the point of having intelligence if you don’t use it once in a while? If I sit by complacently and take everything for granted, I’ll never truly learn anything, for it’s through constant questioning that we discover the real truths. I’m not one to be told what to do. In fact I’ll often do the opposite of what I’m told. Not because I want to rebel or be different, but because it’s what I feel I have to do.
    I also believe that a good portion of my life should be spent helping people. This is part of the reason that I want to be a psychologist. For some reason or another, I was born with or have acquired extraordinary skills. An unwritten contract between the people of this world and myself guarantees that I will use those skills to the best of my ability in order to help those who need it. When I make a difference, I make history.
    The last thing I need to do in my life is to make a mark. I want to publish a book sometime before I die. That way countless generations can know what I was thinking at this point in history. Maybe I’ll create a new psychological perspective that will open the eyes of the world to a whole new way of thinking. But it’s more likely I’ll do something small, but equally important. I have the power to make someone’s day that much better with just a smile. And though all I’ve done is stretch a few facial muscles, I’ve left a mark that won’t be forgotten, at least for a little while.
    I don’t stand out because I die my hair obsessively. I don’t stand out because I get straight A’s on my report card. I don’t stand out because I write poetry or make jokes at every available minute. I don’t stand out because I misbehave. I stand out because I’m my own person with my own aspirations. And there’s only one me.
    Monday, October 3rd, 2005
    9:24 pm
    RIP Garrett Nelson's soooooo weird...two debators that i know and are really awesome ppl are now like the span of 3 months

    Mrs. Schad told us today that Garrett nelson (this really nice lder from yankton that was a freshman at usd) killed himself

    it hit me hard...not because he and i were best buds and stuff, but because i got this image of him just beyond all point of despair and it didn't sit right with me, ya know? like what made him so not want to be in this world...i mean he didn't seem the type but then again those are always the ones who do

    for those on lj who knew garrett i hope you know what i mean...sucker-punch to the gut today i swear

    and then i started just thinking about ppl dying in general, using three examples of ppl (debaters) i kinna knew (matt palmer, johann johnson, and garrett) it's just so weird cuz one minute you know they're up on stage for an award and then the next you hear about them they don't even exist in completely and totally gone

    it just throws you for a spin you know...

    i'm not explaining myself very well

    suffice to say that i'm kinna sad right now for i'm almost in tear-up mode, but it just seems so weird to cry for him...who knows whatll happen

    let all who read this take a moment of silence for this awesome kid...and hope (as corny as it sounds) that whatever happens after death...hope that he's happy...

    Current Mood: contemplative
    Saturday, October 1st, 2005
    10:08 pm
    i'm kinna doing merry's meme here...cept i can't post pics for some i'm gonna describe the movies

    1. dark movie about a blood feud b/w vampires and werewolves...and the creation of a half-vamp half-werewolf

    2. eleven different stories and like 54 characters...bout a bunch of drunk irish criminals

    3. irish twin bros. go on a vigilante killing spree...aided by a gay cross-dressing detective with major issues

    4. two words: project mayhem

    5. summer romance...then she leaves and gets engaged...he comes back and she leaves her fiance...old man reads book to old lady

    6. girl gets pregnant by gay boyfriend and falls for pastor's son

    7. lotsa little love stories that take place around xmas

    8. guy comes home for mother's funeral and works out issues with falls in love and stops his antidepressants

    9. evil guys enlist hacker to steal money (the hacker's pretty hott)

    10. girl falls for co-worker with a girlfriend...he breaks up with girl and she pines...then falls for roommate

    11. president's daughter prances about europe followed by undercover bodyguard

    12. guy prevents son of devil from coming to earth

    13. girl kidnapped in order to end curse...guy follows and ends curse...bad guy dies

    14. kid has mental problems and thinks world will end on halloween...he's right (that's one interpretation if you HAVEN"T seen the directors cut)

    15. interweaving stories about macho guys trying to save girls in a really really really corrupt city

    16. interweaving stories about a summer camp for drama kids

    17. group of teenage hackers team up to take down the big bad

    18. man made with bad hands...not accepted by community...a coupla deaths

    19. man commits hate crime...sent to prison and gets raped...comes back to stop his brother from joining hate gets killed day after he quits

    20. cross-dressing movie director struggles to make a hit in hollywood

    21. kid gets absolved of crime by reason of insanity...but isn't really insane

    22. girl must choose b/w exciting yet irresponsible guy and slightly boring but otherwise awesome guy

    23. playwright in love with girl out of his league...she must marry someone else however

    24. french catholic royal person marries protestant, falls in love with other protestant...lover killed

    25. scheming socialite attempts to land dream date by making him jealous with her next-door neighbor...but they fall in love

    26. girl not happy about how she looks...makes pretty friend pretend to be her on a date...much confusion ensues

    27. 4 short men haffa destroy evil piece of jewelry

    28. creepy man falls in love with 12-yr.-old stepdaughter...they sleep together a lot...(not exactly a favorite movie...but one that sticks with ya!)

    29. girl in coma seeks help of man who moved into her apartment

    30. must defeat evil emperor and restore balance to the universe

    i realize these are ambiguous...but try your best to guess...or don't...whatever

    now the emo spm will go to sleep

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